Sad Songs Remind Me

Come see. I swear by now I'm playing time against my troubles.
I'm coming slow... but speeding.
Do you wish a dance? And while I'm in the front, my play on time is won.
Oh, but the difficulty coming here...

I will go in this place, and I'll find my own way out.
I won't tell you to stay, but I'm coming to much more... me?

All at once the ghosts come back, reeling in you, now.
What if they came in crushing?
I used to play for all of that lonliness that nobody notices now.
Begging slow, I'm coming here... I'm waiting.
I wanted to say, I wanted to play: I wanted to love you.
I'm only this far, and only tomorrow leads my way.
I'm telling you, waltzing back and pushing into your head...

Please, I wouldn't pass you by and I wouldn't take anymore
What sort of man goes by? I will bring water.
What wont you ever be glad? It melts into wonder...
I know I'm praying for you.
Now, why won't you run into the rain and play... and let the tears splash all over you?

[take it away tim]

So they knew all these years. They saw me degregate into a rut of laziness and depression in the name of art. How terrible they knew and didn't tell me. And I was so angry... so angry they would question my integrity and vision... my muse and my goals...

But, I was wrong. I'm sorry.

I've come to find, I'm a very unstable person... and grounded only when several key elements in/around me are also.

The future does hinge on emotion and gut-wrenching irrationality... only not to the extent I thought it to be so. My light burned bright and quickly out, but rekindled in faith that now I KNOW... I know.

I'm growing up. Perhaps I've already done so and not known it. I still appreciate a sunset... but just can't throw my heart away like I used to. I mourn for the caution. I mourn for the seeming loss of "feeling"... but know I can't live with that intensity forever....

for my wife and kids' sake...

pj remoc